Tuesday, 19 March 2013

DEDICATED TO ALL BROKEN HEARTS..




I remember those days when we were living in each-other's heart....
Before I speak any thing to U, U listen that, 
When U used to tease Me, I cry Dramatically, 
then U hug Me to make Me Smile again ....  :( :):* 
I Naughtily rub my nose on Ur shirt, when U noticed I cutely disguised U... :) :* ;)
I remember those days when we had a fight & I was down on my knee to say "Sorry" in front of the world, U shyly accepts my apology... :(
I remember those days when U had not much money in Ur pocket & I asked U for a gift, U somehow managed the money to buy that gift for Me... :'( :):):) :*
I remember those days when I had an accident.. On the way to meet U, but when I saw U.. I had forget all my pain, but when u saw my wound u cared too much... :'( :):* :*
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I know the time has passed, U left me behind and moved away.... But m I still standing on that path with a wish in my heart that.. Please God.. Let the time move backward ... So that I can see U again
at least for once Before the end of my Life...! :'( :* :* :*


 


Saturday, 9 March 2013

LIFE - Undefined Yet... !





Whenever I get sad.. I wish you were here and give me a tight hug.... :'(
So that.. all my sadness fly away and happiness comes..! :)  
I Miss your Presence... :'( :)
I Miss your Teasing Talks... :'( :)
I Miss your Smile... :):):)
I Miss my Peeku'z Cute face... :'( :)
But.. 
Most of all... 
I miss your Hug... :'(  
That last Hug... :'(
A hug which means alot to me... :'(
Ur Hug... that tight hug... :'(
Hug with Love... :'(
Hug with Care... :'(
I always...truely loved you... from the core of my heart... 'P- Eule' ... :'( :* :'(
 
I Still Remember...
When I saw you.. walking with the girl.. you replaced me with... :'(
You looked at me and you make it looks like we've never met...! :'(
I looked at you.. Yes...! I saw you happy with her....! :) :'( :)

All I can say is I'm Happy for You... (T_T)
those words might come out of my mouth like that, 
But inside, it Still kills me...! :'(

I Still Miss those days... (T_T)
that 24/7 chatting.... :)
Fights over little things... :)
Late night talks... :)
Sharing secrets.. :)
Weird dreams.. :)
“Being possessive” attitudes.. :)
Waiting for your texts.. :)
Watching your pics and texts over and over.. :) :'( :)
Smiling for No Reason... :):):) :'( :)
Trusting you blindly.. ( ._.)
Your hugs and kisses.. :'( :*
Your innocent wishes.. :'( :) :'(
BUT...
Now..
Just having...
Empty Inbox... :'( 
No more “I Love U” from my Eule... :'(
Hours of Loneliness... :'(
Unshared emotions.. :'(
Late Night Cries.. :'(
Heart-breaking Secrets.. :'(
Shattered dreams.. :'(
Deleted Memories.. :'(
Fake Smiles.. :'(
Broken Trust.. :'(
Your nailed hugs.. :'(
Your devious heartaches.. :'(
I don't know why i m still waiting for You...! :'( :'( :'(


Tears roll down My cheeks.. :'(
But..
No one to stop them...! :'(

People Say.. I care.. But as-usual.... they are just words...! (T_T)
The world is filled with millions of people..
But still.. it gives me.. the feeling of "Emptiness"...! :'(

Life wants itself to be ended..
But.. it still continues to beat...! (T_T)

People are all around saying.. we are Here..always with you...!
But..
Still.. eyes are in search of some one who really cares... Just the OLD YOU....! :'(
That's Life-Undefined yet.. we desire to live..! (T_T)




Wednesday, 6 March 2013

WHAT SHOULD I SAY TO U...?



Should I say.. I hate U that U left me alone in the middle.. 
In the most critical phase of life's journey......!
Or Should I say I love U.. as U are the one..who helped me to begin a new journey....!

Should  say I hate U.. as.. hurted me, din't trust me bCoz of Someone else...
Or Should I say I love U.. as U are the One who taught Me to Love....!

Should I say I hate U.. as now U are holding someone else in ur arms..
Or Should I say I love U.. as Once U lent those Arms to Me....!

Should I say I hate U.. as now Ur eyes look at Someone else...
Or Should I say I love U.. as for Once those eyes Conveyed to Me.. thoughts innumerable....!

Should I say I hate U... as now U dream about Someone else...
Or Should I say I love U.. as.. for Once we dreamt together of a beautiful life ahead....!

Should I say I hate U.. as now U are No longer in my life...
Or Should I still say I LOVE YOU.. as for once U were Mine.....! ( ,_,)


Monday, 18 February 2013

THANKS TO DUMP.......!!!





Sometimes...The people u don't even notice often know ur worth.. & some people u care about the most make u feel....Trashed & stupid....!!! ( ._.)

But Still.... I think... We must thank to everyone.... Even to those... who made us feel Trashed... for making us a Stronger person than before......!
So..
Here's.. Something I wanna say to those people....
 
All I can say is... "Thank You".....!
You have taught me so many things... And turned the darkness into light.....
My life is blessed in so many ways and I am discovering so much about myself that I stored away for so may years....!

There are so many broken heart people out here. I was also one of them, a year ago and now I write to help others going through the same. My article is just to uplift and support such people. Its really a nice feeling to get your life back and making it better than ever. I truly believe that the end of a relationship is meant to be a gift to give you a better life
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HE left me for ANOTHER WOMAN and for year I cried and blamed him for destroying.. ruining my life.....
But... today I realize... He SAVED me...!
As well... Not everyday is easy and some days I still cry and it still hurts....!

I know... It is a slow and painful process. It's harrowing, scary and overwhelming sometimes. But it's also a great opportunity to get to know yourself for once.
A tall task when you feel nothing but loneliness, but well worth the effort.
I think -
I'm nowhere near there yet.

I look forward to spend time on myself, for myself and being in love with ME for once, instead of pouring all my love into such sucking relationship. It's a hard road.
There’s no quick or easy way to fix a broken heart and no way to stop your heart from hurting so much.
And, to stop loving isn't an option.
But.. once you should fully forgive yourself.. then you’ll embrace hope for the future.
It wasn't an easy process to overcome from the feelings like pain, rejection, anger, heartache and without these things you won’t be able to move on as the old Sufi quote goes, “this too
shall pass”.
We’re all human, we all make mistakes, the purpose of life is the journey, not the destination.

As... U know... I know... The pain is not Permanent and its my choice to hurt and let my thoughts wonder to painful ideas.....! ( ._.)

Well...I have built other relationships around Me....mostly with my best friends and siblings..!
Its been a beautiful journey and I fully believe all the pain was a gift of some sort because the woman I am Today.. Stands tall and proud and Knows the darkness but sees the light....
I also realized that all that stuff I was hiding inside me wasn't all bad stuff.. some beautiful and amazing things have come out of that box and setting it free has been so Empowering......!

I am happy to feel that I have managed to turn my weakness into strength, that doesn't kill me... instead.. really made me stronger. But I don't want to burst my bubble, but there are far worse things that happen, breaking up is just a chore for many people, cheating on regular basis, being alone is nothing new. So many people are alone, you should be happy for what you have, cherish it because well...challenges will appear. But dont worry.. you will only get burden which you can cope with. Its great to see myself... defeating obstacles, but we must be prepared for much worse, these are just warming up rounds.

So...
Thank you...! Because today.. I see.. its not just me that I m not the only one.. who choose to suffer from a broken heart and turn it into something amazing.....!
I m not the only one who was foolish enough.. to deny myself and let Someone elses opinion about me to define Me...! Someone here.. who will love My quirks and appreciate them...!
Instead of condeming me for them.. but until then.. I will surround myself with People who love those things about Me....!

So... Be strong no matter what...! :)

Friday, 15 February 2013

IT WAS ALWAYS JUST ME...!!! :'(




 One day we met..
He said he loves me..
He said I'm the best part of his life..
He said I'm the one who makes him complete..
I believed him so much, I Loved him so much..
I kept my heart open for him.

After some-time…
He said he cried a lot in night,
He said He missed me a lot,
He said that pain was sweet, He said I should feel it too...
But.. I said don't want to,
B'Coz I can't be away from YOU..
 
Then one day...
He said He don't want to keep anything from me,
He said He hates me,
He said He never Loved me,
He said He love someone else... :'(
I said..
Please stop kidding 'n don't scare me...
I asked him again 'n again.. but He never replied me...
When everything was fine,
When I did no mistake,
Why it all ended with dreads,
I guess I missed out something,
I guess I believed him truely,
I should have learned that, He NEVER Loved me...

It was always JUST ME .............!!!!!!!!!! (T_T)

VOH PAGAL SA EK LADKA THA.....!!!


Voh pagal sa ek ladka tha..
Jo mujhko achcha lagta tha..
Mujhe dekh-dekh kar hansta tha..
Mera bahot mazaak udaata tha..
Meri ankhon mein wo basta tha..
Har roz wo roop badalta tha..
Kabhi Dost, Kabhi Maa, Kabhi Paa ki tarah pyaar karta tha...
Har roop mein acha lagta tha......!!! :'( :-* :))
Aankh mein uske masti thi..
Voh baat baat pe hansta tha..
Baarish ki mast si raaton mein..
Voh khoya khoya sa rehta tha..
Baaton mein uske bechaini thi..
Pareshaan wo mujhko karta tha..
Pagal tha ya dewana tha..
Par mujhko achcha lagta tha..
Voh chand ko chhu kar aaya ho,
Aisa roshan lagta tha..
Voh pagal sa ek ladka tha..
Jo mujhko achcha lagta tha.....!!! (T_T)

Tuesday, 12 February 2013

FALLING OUT OF LOVE....!!!




What should you do when you are falling 'out of love'...???
Sometimes, I feel so guilty.
I had promised you 'P'.. that no matter what, I will always be the same. 
I had told you that even if you stop loving me, I would continue to love you.
I have been doing that since a very long time.
Since you stopped calling me, since you stopped loving 'n caring for me. 
I have always been loving you with all my heart.
That is the reason for my care 'n concern for you, in spite of your cold behavior.
Every time you used to come, say some sweet words and go, I used to hang on to them.
I would spend my days remembering the moments when you said “I love you laata bchcha...”.
But, what’s happening to me? Why am I am losing hope? 
Why do I try not to care for you? 
I had promised you that I would love you the same even if you don’t.
Why am I not keeping my promise?
Why am I falling out of love?
Just because you stopped caring, why am I doing the same?
May be I’ve been hurt too much, as you have dumped me really worst way...!
May be I want to smile again, that I could not do since last one 'n half years...!
I am starting to value, to love myself. 
I guess.. I am falling out of love.............!!!
I don’t know whether I will be able to forget you completely or not.
But it’s been too long since I’ve been waiting for you.
May be, you’ll come back, when you would get to know about the reality.
But.. 
May be it’ll be too late to apologize ....!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (T_T)